Big and foxy

So this is what is going on.
The good part of it is that it is large. The dimensions are about 24" x 36" give or take. Large size work allows me to be able to work with a different range of motion and techniques generally not used in smaller scale stuff. It, obvioulsy, opens the door for doing work in larger scale. Sometimes bigger is better.
On the flip side, it might well be all an act of avoidance. Simply put, it is not painting. Though I intend to do the larger works on paper for a while it is not what I should be doing. I do not know if I can honestly say that anything done on this will help me paint later.
Do not get me wrong. I enjoy working in charcoal nad pastel and I am quite comfortable drawing and often satidfied with the results. The problem I have is I am unwilling to leave my comfort zone. Mayby I should just let it happen on its own but truly one does need to force the issue some times.
This is especially true since I have been quite unhappy about my painting in the last several forays. I do not think I can find any satisfaction if I do not put the work into it. Does this all have to be a psychological game? I doubtr it but it seems to be.
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